ARCATA, CALIFORNIA!

Alright, so I got accepted to Humboldt State University and the only thing missing from my puzzle is an apt. I need to find one in Arcata, California or Eureka. I am not sure what I want. I say that because I made a friend in Arcata but she hasn’t emailed me back in the past three times I have written to her. I get nervous when I loose communication with people. I will just fill out a bunch of applications I guess for a singel bedroom.

Oh well, I will write again it will just be a while so, everyone have an awesome day.

Cycle Of DOOM!

    Life, were do I go from here. I am constantly thinking about my future, goals, and my beliefs. Where does it end. It may never end.  I do however continue to fly in the direction that I am intended to. When I say intended to, I mean, what I have planned for myself. For the longest time I have had dreams of doing art yet discouraged by my mother because she wanted what she thought was best for me but I knew I would never be happy in a job that I didnt enjoy.

Yes, my loving mother, good intentions though. I know she didn’t want me to end up like many of the students who were stereotyped as drop outs. The stereotype wouldn’t be so true if many of those kids thought on their own and not on behalf of what they saw and what they thought they could never achieve. I don’t know how I ended up getting out of the circle of DOOM. I did have some of the craziest friends in highscool but it is only because of the help of the ugly years in middle school. I was pushed away from the kids because they wanted to have nothing to do with me. Which was fine with me although hard not to be in the in crowed. Until later in high school. My thanks to Jono, Alan, and as much as I hate to give this thanks… thank you Elias. All of you have encouraged me to think different and open my mind to many other ideas. You were all like my role models. I appreciate it.

I have been moving through my thoughts of moving to Arcata, California. Big step. Well I do need something new. I deserve it, not only that but the school I plan to attend is everything I could ever ask for.( http://humboldt.edu/) Also glad, that I am not taking the safe way. The one person who encouraged me in the first place drove me crazy, yet, got the message across. That I need to do what I want not what everyone else wants.  He is beginning to start the cycle of DOOM. I hope he doesn’t. I hope to help and guide him the way he did me. Love you Steven. Life is hard, and if you want to do video editing, if you want it so bad you got to find away to do it.

That’s what is wrong with us small towner’s. If we stay in one place to long we get discouraged and think that we will never be able to make it past the towns limits. It really sucks feeling that way. If all of these people new they have a chance just like every other person in this world. They would strive for a better life then what is already planned out for them.

Love to All, Peace.

No Name

Janis Joplin

This is a Charcoal Drawing I did of Janis Joplin. I did it by heart. I love her music so much. It really touches me. I feel how trapped she felt when her drug abuse had control of her and I think i captured her passion for singing because that is the way she felt free.

Fish Out of Water

 

                            

Fish Out of Water

This Fish is Bronze and it is supposed to represent all of the littering that everyone including me doesn’t always think about. So everything is supposed to be fake.The tank is made purposely of garbage, such as styrofoam, paper, the water is made of gesso and sand.

The fish is trying to swim for anything better then its environment. Even if it means being without water because he is probably going to die anyway.