Gibberish and MORE Gibberish.

How many times in life do you sit down with someone you once had an intimate relationship with and are able to just think of that person as complete friends. You are never sure if the other person has the same feelings.
You might have similar feelings for them in a different way.
Ha! A little confusing? It always is. I have been around my ex boyfriend many times we actually hang out all the time, we are super great friends. I can safely say we are best friends. I have the same relationship with my first boyfriend too, we are just really good friends.
I Kinda wonder how many of my soon to be boyfriends will be able to handle that. I always wonder. Is it a pride thing? Is it trust? Jealousy? All of the above?

So, I guess other then that I wanted to leave my friends whom read my website a few updates about what has been going on with me lately.
I arrived in Las Cruces, Nm, not to long ago. Ive been here a little more than a week and I found an apartment the first day I got here for a reasonable price. Selected my classes and found a roommate. Other than that I have just been enjoying my time with myself and my friends. Because I don’t have a tv.

I have been having to self entertain. Reading, writing, singing, playing tennis and talking. I think that a lot of people that have television have lost this sense of self. Lately, I have been more aware of the kind of person I am. Its mostly because I have found the time to be alone with my thoughts. Its important to not get obsessed with life’s little distractions. Such as, all the things which could distract you from spending time with yourself.

I know that this whole post is kind of random and most of the words that I am typing is just gibberish flying in and out of my mind. If you have ever read Catcher in the Rye you would see how similar me and the main character are when it comes to expressing ourselves. When I am not writing a post about a main topic I wont pay attention to how organized the post should be so all you can see is how genuine I am or just be able to see what I am all about with out rules.

Thats another thing that slightly irritates me RULES! Yes, I know rules are made for a reason and usually when it comes to reading and writing the rules help us understand each other better. In my opinion I know that the rules help but at the same time the post that I am most interested in are posts that people just spill all of there thoughts without checking of there paragraphs. Its just straight from their brains to the paper. Thats what I miss about journals. You could just write what ever was on the top of your mind with no consequence because there is no original plan for people to read what you have written, Which makes spo·rad·ic thoughts so interesting!

Also, I have been talking to a friend whom I have had a crush on for years. I just thought Id throw that in there. He wrote a song for me. We may not happen right now though because we live so far. I am not discouraged though. I think that eventually I will be ready and maybe he will be the one at the other end but at the same time I am not going to encourage the thought. I am sure you know how that goes… never plan that far a head or you will just disappoint yourself. But there is nothing wrong with thinking of the possibilities.

So, I guess if we where following this thing called RULES… I would end this with some sort of quote. I would say that any relationship you may have with your ex’s should continue as friends. They probably know you the best and maybe even know a lot about you that can make you more comfortable talking with them.

Well, thats all the wisdom I have on the top of the good ol’ noggin. I Hope you all enjoy. If you like this style of writing you should let me know. I will continue rambling just for you.