Me and Aubrey… many moons ago

Last week I was…

I am sitting outside watching some fun people doing fun things… I am not sure what they are doing but they are having a great time. I love to watch people have a great time. They are speaking another language and dancing? I am not sure what they are doing exactly… haha. There is no music! haha, this is pretty entertaining and fun.

I am having fun watching them have fun. I always wonder what everyone is thinking about but mostly I love to hear people speaking another language and enjoying their lives! How fun it is to be yourself. Well, I may not know if they are being themselves around each other but they are all dressed differently yet, still laughing at the same time. I am also a sucker for laughter.

Laughter. I miss that genuine laughter. Being older you have more responsibilities with your laughter. You must always be cautious, you are constantly being judged by the people around you… If you laugh at the wrong thing or at the wrong time it can cost you more than you could imagine. A job, friendship, boyfriend, girlfriend sometimes even family. How to hold in that feeling!? It is a difficult thing.

Getting ready to go to work not enthused at all. I would like to practice my spanish I will so devote an entire blog to be spanish written! Soon.

Living by the Moment

Its really hard to shut myself from the world and want to change it at the same time. I find that i become more frustrated with every test i take that doesn’t seem to get me anywhere that i really want to go. As much as I love school I hate these classes that are postponing my dream to one day become an art therapist. I really aim to help people. I don’t really want to market my Art but I know many people would like a piece of that feeling that others put into paper. People are so interesting and are constantly needing someone to talk to and I love being that person…

My only problem is that I try to tackle to much and make the people I know and help a priority over my school work. Am I the only person who does this!!! I am not sure if using the skills i learn from psychology to help others is ok if I have a history test coming up and I should study for that but knowing that I helped someone figure out a major mental crisis is much more fulfilling then learning about all the many european kings and the way they failed at conquering land and power for there own selfish honor.

I would like to bring My focus to the people I work for (My friends and strangers) and they may not know it but I openly ask them many questions knowing that they are unsatisfied with what they feel they have been handed in this world. Whether or not i give them advice I am either learning something new or helping them become satisfied with that moment because we all know we are not satisfied with our lives all the time… Moment by moment is the only way to truly satisfy our littlest and biggest needs.